Fitter than I have been for years

I am stronger than I have been for years because I follow advice my coaches should have given me 20 years ago. 

In 90 minutes I will sprint in my school with a colleague. On Sunday I casually ran 24k. I am admittedly heavy but my fitness levels are high. 

Health scares inspired my fitness push. My gut was in such pain only a few years ago that I attend A&E. I gave up all unnecessary sugar, and alcohol. I walked 4k a day for maybe 10 months. I have run park runs, finding myself almost hit 21 minutes, down from 27-28 minutes. 

All of this is humbling. I used to run 65 seconds for 400m easily, and clocked 56 seconds. Now? 90 seconds was my time, albeit on grass and running corners. 

I used to run 19 minute 5ks. Now? I am running what feels like my fastest, and staying at 22 minutes. That is humbling. 

Yet my mind might be stronger in some ways than before. Stay with yourself, and run slowly. You want to stay alive for a while longer yet. 

Running makes the day real, giving it shape and purpose. 

A Thousand Voices

Last night I slept until 8am, dreaming of a missed flight to somewhere, and the anger at being 'held back' by my family. 

I was born into a remarkably poor family state, with almost no network and very little money. One parent fled, leaving debts and ire behind, killing himself socially rather than physically. 

I struggle to strive for an 'improvement' of life in the way I once did. 

I... 

Pomodoros on Free Days...

 Today I have been to the gym, finishing a pomodoro and a book. 

The main ambition today is to tackle the concept booklets. 

For some reason I do not really want to. 

But the pomodoro will help. 

Down to 68(.8)kg

Weight is an easy indicator of fitness. 

I have dropped from... to 12.9 stone 10.8 stone. 

My interview, presentation and task went well for the assistant head of T&L. I feel blessed to be in this position, of being respected by my superiors. 

I am too busy to disdain the old guard of Dubai. We can do something better here. 

I want to be.