Slowly building up again
It has been an inordinate amount of time since I exercised, and I have suffered for it. I don't know if I blogged this, but I have been experiencing sharp pains in my chest for several weeks. While it might be from stressed, I do not feel mentally stressed (in the sense of feeling out of control.) However, I am undoubtedly expected to perform at a high level in my job, especially now. That is not a problem. I work that hard anyway.
But working hard is not enough. Today, after managing the visit the gym twice in two days after nearly nothing in a month, I reflected on that. I have always run hard. I have eaten hard, too. I have run hard, but not necessary run over a period of time. I sprint. I run 5ks and 10ks. I ran a sub 19 minute 5k and thought that made me a half-decent runner.
Although I am carrying an inordinate amount of weight (I am 12 stone, now) my injuries are minimal. I still have an ache in my right Achilles from football some weeks ago. It is almost certainly a throwback, too, from the tightness of my right leg after my marathon. However, it isn't desperate.
I am wearing flats moreso now. I am trying to build up the explosive spring I once easily had. It doesn't need to be so explosive anymore, but more springy.
One thing that I haven't felt for a long time is hungry. I eat regularly, and I eat a huge amount. Today, I ate two steaks. In the evening, I am likely to eat bacon sandwiches. This is my diet. However, I do not intend to eat past 8pm. It is something for which I will aim. That rule was once set because it meant I found it easier to wake up in the morning (early, at least.) I find it much easier now in my age to wake up early, even in my non-contact work days (ah, just say weekend!)
When I was younger, I used to either wake up late after epic dreaming, or wake up early and feel the need to complete an inordinate amount of work. Now, I wake up early and reflect. It is a nice routine.
My lack of exercise reflects, too, my lack of something to direct my efforts. I have some projects, but feel distinctly underwhelmed. That is not a tremendous problem, although it does mean that I am not running easily. It does mean that I am free (if little angsty with it) to find my own efforts, and my own projects - or at least free to dedicate them more usefully than before.
But working hard is not enough. Today, after managing the visit the gym twice in two days after nearly nothing in a month, I reflected on that. I have always run hard. I have eaten hard, too. I have run hard, but not necessary run over a period of time. I sprint. I run 5ks and 10ks. I ran a sub 19 minute 5k and thought that made me a half-decent runner.
Although I am carrying an inordinate amount of weight (I am 12 stone, now) my injuries are minimal. I still have an ache in my right Achilles from football some weeks ago. It is almost certainly a throwback, too, from the tightness of my right leg after my marathon. However, it isn't desperate.
I am wearing flats moreso now. I am trying to build up the explosive spring I once easily had. It doesn't need to be so explosive anymore, but more springy.
One thing that I haven't felt for a long time is hungry. I eat regularly, and I eat a huge amount. Today, I ate two steaks. In the evening, I am likely to eat bacon sandwiches. This is my diet. However, I do not intend to eat past 8pm. It is something for which I will aim. That rule was once set because it meant I found it easier to wake up in the morning (early, at least.) I find it much easier now in my age to wake up early, even in my non-contact work days (ah, just say weekend!)
When I was younger, I used to either wake up late after epic dreaming, or wake up early and feel the need to complete an inordinate amount of work. Now, I wake up early and reflect. It is a nice routine.
My lack of exercise reflects, too, my lack of something to direct my efforts. I have some projects, but feel distinctly underwhelmed. That is not a tremendous problem, although it does mean that I am not running easily. It does mean that I am free (if little angsty with it) to find my own efforts, and my own projects - or at least free to dedicate them more usefully than before.
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